So I decided to make a post in the subreddit for my nearest city. It was about development corruption by the University, and the fact that they have used money, power and influence to skip due process and corrupt both local and state government.
The first hour or so? Pleasant enough. Highly upvoted. Tolerant discussion. And then the fucking shills and trolls came. And they attacked. They attacked hard. Full on slanging match.
Guess what? Turns out they all, all work for the Uni, or at least claim to. We "outed" one of them as a fucking Zoom lecturer (surprise surprise that she referred to the fucking vice chancellor on a first name basis), after she had attempted to personally attack me, and even went for the full doxx.
It's crazy, there, now. Wild. Everything pointing out the obvious corruption, or widespread community disagreement (literally no one in the community, and off Reddit, wants this. Not a single person in any other forum, except for the manufactured consent on Facebook, has been positive. Not one) has been heavily downvoted, and every comment "supporting" the University, and saying how anyone in disagreeement is "dumb, ignorant hicks", have been highly upvoted.
It's frankly... Bizarre. Totally inorganic. Almost like they must have... People whose job it is is to to literally search out posts like mine, and run damage control. Like a very local version of hasbara, or Russian trolls...
Absolutely wild. I reckon they'll ban me, soon, for "being aggressive", or some bullshit.
Oh, and guess who one of the main "defenders" of the Uni, and the council, has been, all over social media? My old philosophy prof, at school, who was literally sacked for being an alcoholic ebebophile (you know, paedo for teen girls) and drug dealer, and has fled the country, but who feels the need to still comment on all local socials, because he is "a distinguished academic", and also happens to be "a philosopher", just like the completely corrupt VC of the Uni.
Former VC, who started all this shit, happens to have also been outed as a paedo, and sexual predator. Funny that. Almost like there's a pattern, innit?
Why are these places, and people, always like this? Lol...
Don't let them get to you.
Oddly, I think today, being probably the worst I’ve felt in a couple of years, made me realise that I have to tell someone that I’ve loved since we were kids that I miss her. Just that. That I… Would love to be in touch again.
I don’t think I realised until today that she is probably it. She’s the one. I always told myself “Maybe one day, but you’re not good enough for her right now.”
Well, I don’t think that’s good enough anymore. I have to at least try. So god, at least that’s something.
It was always her. Always. And damn I wish I had told her that 10 years ago.
I think before you do anything, the first thing you need to do is to clear some of the energy you have now.. chill out and clear your head. You seem a bit rattled, so take some time to re center yourself. That's my advice.
It's actually funny. Like, you have to laugh. Because shit like this is so fucking bad, that it is the only appropriate response.
To be clear, there is no way I deserved this. Not in a million years. So that is totally on her to such an extent that it, well it makes me wonder how the hell it got to this.
But it isn't my fault. I do at least know that.
No one deserves to be treated this way by someone who they literally would've trusted with their life, a few years back, lol.
At least not when just saying "Hey".
So... We move on, right? And we just keep moving on.
Sorry that happened man.
Well, I did it. But it went worse than I could ever have imagined. Like, in my wildest ideas of how badly it could possibly have gone, I didn't actually picture this.
She literally didn't even let me finish typing before she blocked me. There and square. Straight away. Without even reading it. No response. No answer. Just an instant block on all forms of contact, as soon as I finished typing.
Basically all I said was "Hey, I'm really sorry it's been so long. How are you?", but obviously with more words. And she blocked me. As I was typing.
I'm honestly too shocked to really feel anything, at this point. This is someone who I used to be very close to, even though we never... Did anything. So... This is quite a shock.
Totally, totally unprovoked. The only thing I've done "wrong" is not messaged her or been in touch in a long time.
So thus, it actually ends. In a bizarrely anticlimactic, terribly sad, and really very... Odd, way.
I'm too disappointed to let it upset me too much, tbh. I don't deserve this. Not from her. Not now.
But oh well. Fuck her, quite honestly, if that's her fucking response.