Some of it sounds like botched surgery but it also doesn't sound like doctors are capable of converting male genitals into passable female genitals capable of sexual pleasure like a real vagina.
I'm now concerned that much of what I took as a gender dysfunction might have been nothing more than a neurotic sexual obsession. I was a cross-dresser for all of my sexual life and had always fantasized going fem as an ultimate turn-on. Ironically, when I began hormone treatment my libido went away. However, I mistook that relief from sexual obsession for validation of my gender change. Then in the final bit of irony, after surgery my new genitals were non-orgasmic (like 80% of my TG sisters).
(EDIT: Because I don't trust archive.org to not purge problematic lived experiences: https://archive.is/IN7D3 )
From Special Note to Those Thinking About a Sex Change:
I'm now concerned that much of what I took as a gender dysfunction might have been nothing more than a neurotic sexual obsession. I was a cross-dresser for all of my sexual life and had always fantasized going fem as an ultimate turn-on. Ironically, when I began hormone treatment my libido went away. However, I mistook that relief from sexual obsession for validation of my gender change. Then in the final bit of irony, after surgery my new genitals were non-orgasmic (like 80% of my TG sisters).
(EDIT: Because I don't trust archive.org to not purge problematic lived experiences: https://archive.is/IN7D3 )
https://github.com/Y2Z/monolith