Have you considered trying to find a way to live over there instead of here? Working for a US company remotely or as a freelancer is something a lot of people do now and the pandemic has made it even easier.
It sounds like your life is lacking meaning. i would suggest taking up some hobbies and reading. It helps start moving the mind in a direction.
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